Celaine's Blues (The Perfect Fan)
I. Crisis
You say you love me, you say you care
You say you'll always be right there
But when you hold me, baby, all I can feel is the cold night air
You say you don't want a lover to tie you down
Sometimes I wonder if you even want a lover around
Wasn't too long I had to rejoice in the love that I'd found
Seems when you were alone, you wanted someone to stay all night
Now that you got me, baby, you don't want to treat me right
You say you love me, you say you care
You say you'll always be right there
But when you hold me, baby, all I can feel is the cold night air
II. Self-loathing
Workin' for the man, tryin' to find a special plan
Like how to be the perfect fan
Spend my time just thinkin', maybe I shouldn't take up drinking,
While my life is sleepin' and noddin' and winkin'
So how can you tell me it's getting better when plebeian suits me to the letter?
Try to change my style, rarely give much more than a smile
My head in shambles all the while
So how can you tell me it's getting better when thespian suits me to the letter?
Maybe when I rise, I will be satisfied and wise;
The answer clearly in my eyes
So how can you tell me it's getting better
When librarian suits me to the letter?
I don't understand how I can change
When the first thing that's noticed is my name
Decisions and choices rush through my brain
My heart's doubled over with the pain
So how can you tell me its...?
III. The Medic
It's alright, you don't need to pretend with me
Hell, yes, it's a fight, but I'm not your enemy
I know the light going down the road can get dim
You say you don't know just what's become of Mace
Say you got to go and join the human race
I say, honey, you're probably better off without them
'Cause you don't need to belive or follow behind the fashion
But you gotta belive in, you gotta be right with, you gotta believe in yourself
You can escape in your television dream,
But it will rape your thoughts of things unseen
Wake up and take a walk outside, the world is waiting for you...
You got to be strong and take it day by day
But it's not wrong if you ask for help along the way
Time is just for you to do what you wanna do
'Cause you don't need to belong to a certain sophisticated circle
But you gotta belong to, you gotta be right with, you gotta belong to yourself
Don't waste time worryin' about what could have been
Just pick yourself up and start all over again,
Over again,
I won't let you fall, if there's damn thing I can do,
So just stand tall and let them worry about you
For a change,
My lover, my friend
'Cause you can't trust in the world to bring you complete satisfaction
But you can trust in, yes, you can lean on, you can trust in me
©1996 A. Ray. Annabel Is Her Mother Today (ASCAP).